I get so frustrated that I have to work and people get to sponge off benefits, cheating the system when they’re much better off than a lot of people. I also get 10x more frustrated for thinking like this! But government make it so easy to want to be a dole rider or to pop kids out and live on income support because you get more benefits compared to if you were to work!

Payday tomorrow and no doubt I go wild and blow majority because I feel so shit, to then feel even more shit hours later because I’ve wasted every penny. Sleeping my days away maybe isn’t such a bad idea, for that simple reason…

In my mind I’m so self conscious and want to change everything about my appearance and lifestyle yet all I do is carry on each boring day eating and eating, hating life more and more and not doing a single thing to change anything. When will I ever get a grip?! :(